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I am still working on my resolutions – I really work on them all year long. I realized last year that they are perpetually in draft form which doesn’t get in the way of me working on them and keeps them fresh and vital all year long.

I moved over the holidays from one state to another as well as one job to another which has left me feeling a little disconnected and insubstantial. I left two of my kids in the other state – they are young adults, not kids, but still. They are my babies regardless of age.

My employer has a very rich and robust intranet with all of the customary business related data as well as a lot of more employee focused, not necessarily business related features. One of the articles up this week is focused around New Year’s Resolutions. It has some pointers that you would expect, check your finances, get in shape, track your performance with an eye toward the mid and year end reviews, but there are also a couple of points that made me sit back and think Wow. I really like the company I work for. I know there are underlying reasons – happier employees equal more productivity, yadda, yadda. I get that Mr. Employer is not more concerned about me than about the health of the company. But still. They don’t have to include things like this on the intranet, either. Take a look at these, taken verbatim, but not credited due to privacy concerns.

• Try to be a better listener. Whether at home or at work, listening is a gift you can give that costs you nothing. Listening does not involve solving the other person's dilemma - that's their job. When offering support by listening actively you can give family and friends just what they need to approach their own concerns in a new way.

• Reach out to your elderly relatives. They may covet their independence - but still need your help. Open a conversation aimed at finding out what kinds of assistance they might need and would accept. Even simple things like help with lawn-care or shoveling snow can be a good first step.

• For those with young children, try to take the words "Hurry up" out of your vocabulary. Sit yourself down and strategize ways to make your morning and bedtime routines a little slower and saner. Your kids will thank you.

• Consider volunteer work. There is certainly no shortage of need in the world - resolve to do your part to make the world a better place. If you choose a volunteer activity like helping rehab a home for the homeless, or coaching a baseball team, you get the benefit of adding exercise as you help the world.

So, for my 2009 Resolutions as they are right now:

1. Write. Just write. Write something. A poem, journal, scenes, a break out novel, a song, a prayer… write!
2. Work on a richer financial plan
3. Get back to a size where I am comfortable in my clothes
4. Exercise weekly - options
1. Walks with Leah
2. wii fit (but more than just slalom skiing and the soccer ball head butting thing)
3. A Yoga class
4. Salsa dancing
5. Learn to play tennis with Sammie
5. Reengage in life
6. Find a church
7. Volunteer -ideas
1. Reservation
2. Soup kitchen or food pantry
3. JDRF or ADA
4. Voting precinct
8. Laugh out loud every day
9. Hug my monsters several times a day

And thanks to the employer:

10. Work to be a better listener
11. Eliminate “hurry up”, sighs, any passive aggressive communication of a hurry up emotion from every morning
12. Reach out to Great Grandma and Great Grandpa. They may not need much from me but more and better company and I can provide that readily enough – just have to do it.

Current Location:
home in my little office
Current Mood:
tired tired
Current Music:
Jason Mraz
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The time for resolutions will be upon us in no time.  It's always a surprise when New Year's day arrives immediately after the mad rush of the holidays.  One New Years I am little more than exhausted, hardly ready to leap into a whole new me.  So I decided to pull out my resolutions from last year and keep them in front of me for the next several weeks.  Maybe I can modify, adjust, tweak and improve them so they are ready to go for New Years this time.
 

2008 Resolutions....

  1. Write a scene a week - absolute bare minimum
  2. "Attend" the Crusie/Mayer online class
  3. Save toward a Barbara Samuel class
  4. Get back to a size where I am comfortable in my clothes
  5. Exercise weekly - options
    1. Walks with Leah
    2. Back to Lifetime
    3. A Yoga class
    4. Salsa dancing
    5. DDR :-)
    6. The purple ball
    7. ....
  6. Reengage in life
  7. Find a church
  8. Work toward a finished initial draft by the end of 2007
  9. Volunteer -ideas
    1. Reservation
    2. Soup kitchen, although I am not sure I am comfortable going into sop kitchen areas of Detroit
    3. JDRF or ADA
    4. Voting precinct
  10. Laugh out loud every day
  11. Hug my monsters several times a day
Still a WIP.... is there a deadline for finalizing resolutions?

 

Originally posted on autumnjournal.vox.com

Current Location:
home
Current Mood:
sad sad
Current Music:
Sanders Bohlke
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When I was in high school in the mid-eighties I had a fabulously diverse group of friends who, to this day, remain as enchanted almost magical characters in the story of my life.  When I get lost or deeply blue or begin feeling that I have somehow missed the point those people – my people – come back to me and remind me that I too was a magical faerie princess once who lived in an enchanted kingdom and was charming and intelligent and artistic and made people happy.

About a year ago I came home from a Saturday wandering with a record player.  One of those quaint reproductions in a wooden housing with vintage-look knobs and switches and speakers.  Since then I stop at garage sales and antique malls and thrift stores snatching up all of the records from my youth that I sold at my own garage sale years and years ago.  While I haven’t found Prince’s Purple Rain or Madonna’s Borderline yet I have found lots of older records.

Herb Albert and the Tijuana Brass (which I LOVE)
Harry Belafonte
Dan Fogelberg
Simon and Garfunkel
Helen Reddy
The Music Man
My Fair Lady
Grease
Annie
ABBA

And yesterday I found Neil Diamond’s Love at the Greek and Stones both of which are albums played in my childhood home nearly every weekend. 

Lucas, one of those magical friends from high school fell in love with another of our group (a phenomenon which happened with startling frequency.  We were quite in-bred our group).  That year, and for many years after, Secily became known as Chelsea.  As in ~

“I woke up it was a Chelsea morning
And the first thing that I knew
There was milk and toast and honey
And a bowl of oranges too
And the light poured in like butterscotch
And stuck to all my senses”

I know it isn’t cool to like Neil Diamond these days, and definitely not at my age – my parents maybe, but a forty year old should not be a Neil Diamond fan.  But what fantastic poets that generation created!

“Won’t you stay
We’ll put on the day
And wear it ‘til the night comes”

And how wonderful that an ultra-cool surfer dude in 1985 was inspired by and sang a Neil Diamond song to the girl who made him feel like a morning with “milk and toast and honey and a bowl of oranges, too…”

Isn’t it amazing how a song can bring back an entire period in your life including scents and tastes and emotions?

Current Location:
on the couch
Current Mood:
nostalgic nostalgic
Current Music:
Neil Diamond - duh
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I have lost me in recent years. I appreciate the fact that my adult life has not been easy. I have said before and I firmly believe that I am a better person now than I was as a very young woman. I appreciate so much and take so much less for granted at this point in my life. Which is good.

But I am lost. I know some basic truths about me:

  • I am a writer and I want to be a storyteller
  • I have a deep and abiding faith
  • I have a sensuous nature ~ I feel and taste and breath in my world
  • I am a mother, daughter, granddaughter and niece and I was once a wife and likely will be again
  • I am friends with my ex-husband, the father of my children and I am inordinately proud of that
  • I love making a home for my family although I have not always been proud of my accomplishments in this role
  • I am a  good employee, but do not want to be one forever
  • I curl in on myself and exist instead of living when I am blue (now)
  • I have been lonely much of my adult life because I am afraid
  • I am TIRED of existing and being afraid!
I am ready to take steps, cautious as they may be.
  • Get up! - No more hibernating
  • Plant
  • Fix something every single week
  • Write every single day
    • Voice Class
    • Story
    • Blog
    • Journal
  • Be creative in additional ways
    • Cook
    • Sew
    • Play with media
    • Practice the piano and the guitar
  • Stop the stress eating (she types while reaching for the soft, warn sugar cookie lying on a plate beside the computer)
  • Move!
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Current Location:
Home desk
Current Mood:
discontent discontent
Current Music:
All the Pretty Little Ponies
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"If I had to live my life again, I'd make the same mistakes - only sooner."
~ Talullah Bankhead

Remember to value the richness of the tapestry that is you. You would not be as deep or multi-faceted or as wise without the lines around your eyes and the bruises on your soul.

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Current Location:
my office
Current Mood:
thankful thankful
Current Music:
The Story of M
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